I haven’t posted on here in quite a while, I should be so ashamed with myself!
Well ok, it’s not that bad, and to be fair I just haven’t had any random issues on my mind worth blogging about, and to be perfectly honest, today is not one of those days either.
However what I will write about is what has been going on lately with myself. So I’m back home for the summer now, and this has given me the opportunity to use my Xbox Kinect properly, as there is now plenty of room to get “down with it”. I’ve been using “Your Shape: Fitness Evolved” it’s pretty good, so far I’ve burnt just over 1600 calories at my last check, which is pretty great, I feel full of energy more than ever. And as I have noticed the changes this has motivated me to invest in some more games to jump around like a neurotic idiot to in the confines of my living room. But Kinect aside, I have been changing my lifestyle a bit, mainly small changes but it’s all going to add up in the end.
Another recent turn of event’s has led me to come to the grave realisation that my life is about to take a turn for the worse. Now I’ve always been quite open minded to the world about anything really, however one small event (infact two) however small changes all of that. Yes, I will be seeing Glee LIVE (how wonderful) at the O2 Arena on the 26th June. Mark that day in your calendars my friends, as that will probably be my last day on this planet, where entire TV shows can break sales records and perform at your local concert venue. Suffice to say, this is an event I’m not looking forward to by any means. So Instead I’m looking at it as an “experience” because that experience will be a combination of screaming kids, screaming girls, screaming everything… I mean I’ve seen some pretty credible act’s in my time like the Red Hot Chili Peppers, Foo Fighters, Muse and many more “traditional” musicians. But this shall be something.
And if that wasn’t bad enough, two weeks later my eyes shall bare witness to one of histories greatest wonders, I say wonders, what I really meant to say was one of histories greatest money making schemes as I will be in the company of some 80’000 drunk middle aged women (who will let themselves go for sure) to watch Take That at Wembley Stadium. I have to admit, there are the odd song’s I don’t mind and I’m fairly sure it will be quite a performance and a nice set design and all of that. But there’s something about it that just doesn’t feel right. Most likely the intimidation of a crowd of 40 something Essex clad women letting themselves go for five blokes who can sing a few tunes. I’ve seen some news coverage about some of their other gigs, I think that swiftly brought me to reality that I will be at one of those gigs, with all those fumbling women everywhere, right on paper this sounds like a dream….but those women, they are like….well like animals. (and not the good kind!)
I’m sure I’ll have a lovely time, and if I don’t, at least I still have Arcade Fire and the Foo Fighter’s between both of those act’s to look forward to.
But my life right now is perfect, sure there could be improvements but you know, that goes the same for everyone.
On Monday 6th June, shit is about to get serious as I start a new era of my life, it is after all what you make of it and I fully intend to make the most of it. Determination is key and will prevail once again!
2011 so far has been amazing, it’s only going to go uphill from here!
As the second year of Uni is nearing towards the end, I would say it has been quite a learning curve for me, I started the year as a Warcraft addict, eagerly looking forward to Cataclysm… and I’ve finished it, where I literally could not give a damn about my old Warcrafting ways anymore.
It’s good, I’ve passed everything for uni work and can look forward to returning next year, unless my tutor decides that I did indeed fail something after all like last summer (Although I highly doubt that this year).
Keeping this post short and sweet because it could easily descend into paragraphs of rambling.
This song was pretty much my gateway into the world of drum and bass/dubstep music. Before this song, I hated it, I could never find a beat to get into it, just thought it was a load of crap really, as a friend described it “It’s like R2D2 having sex…” since this song however, about 18 months ago… the gates have opened me to the world of this genre.
I watched a few of the acts yesterday, Chase and Status, Foo Fighters and a few others. Dave Grohl really worked the stage as always! Really loving it so far, watched Two Door Cinema Club, which are a band I’ve started listening to in the past 6 months, and they did a great set! And also caught the end of Katy B’s set, haven’t really listened to her music much in the past, but she seemed to work the stage nicely. Looking forward to watching Magnetic Man, The Strokes, My Chemical Romance and Lady Gaga later today! :)
There are so many song’s I would have loved to share on here, but I’ve decided on Charlie by the Red Hot Chili Peppers!
This song really has been a somewhat major/minor part of my life in 2007. The Red Hot Chili Peppers asked their fans to make a music video to this song which excited the hell out of me, as it was something I always wanted to do. Although I didn’t win my video was pretty good and widely recognised amongst the community of film makers as one of the better videos which I was proud about.
So yesterday I was chatting over skype with a friend, and for whatever reason the discussion became about old videos that we made as kids. I used to experiment a lot with windows movie maker when I was really young making silly little videos on my webcam, recreating various films I had seen. On a technical level they were terrible, just a single camera angle, from my computer desk. Bad video quality, terrible acting! But you know, it started me off, on my path to develop my skills as a film maker.
So why is this post called Lego Studios? Well, like most other guys and girls, I grew up on Lego, I LOVED the stuff, I remember I used to have Lego sets such as an alien train network and a space station amongst so many other themes and varieties. But there was one Lego set that just blew all the rest away.
I remember the whole story so well, I was 11 years old, I was in my local Tesco supermarket where I came across the latest issue of Lego magazine (I used to get it every month!) and behold to my eyes was an article. This article probably dramatically changed my life I didn’t know it back then, but it really had an impact on my future.
The article introduced the brand new exciting product from Lego, Lego Studios. Now this wasn’t like any other Lego set, this one was a film studio made out of Lego, with endorsing by Steven Spielberg (Who was my favourite film director of the time) there was actually a mini lego Steven Spielberg, I could not believe it! But the main thing that grasped my interest was that it came with a LEGO WEBCAM and movie editing software to make real films out of LEGO!
You know… for an eleven year old kid, this stuff was priceless, it’s the sort of thing that allows your imagination to go really wild. I was literally obsessed with Lego Studios for months, I kept looking back at that article and occasionally the small section on the Lego website with my really fast 56k internet connection!
There was one problem, I didn’t know when it was coming out. There was such little information back then, no such thing as Twitter or Facebook, heck, even Myspace was a good few years away! And my poor little soul just didn’t know when this magical amazing Lego set would be unleashed upon the world!
Months went past, I kept checking my local Toy Shop whenever I went into town and nothing, it was not to be seen. Then one day, not expecting anything, I walked into the Toy Shop with my Dad. My jaw dropped, on the highest shelf right at the back of the store… there stood, glistening against the lights, next to the Lego Millenium Falcon, there stood what I had been searching for. My Holy Grail if you will, Lego Studios was right there on the top shelf. My jaw dropped I could hardly contain my excitement! My Dad saw the price which was £150 (or something) and well, he said “No!”…. my heart sank, but then my Dad told me he was joking, so he bought it for me. I honestly don’t think the staff could have seen a bigger grin on a child’s face when I bought Lego Studios that day.
I was so excited, I could not wait to go open, rip open the packaging and start making movies. I had it all planned out, I was going to do an epic movie, where a Dinosaur unleashes havoc on the small lego town. There was no Youtube back then, so you couldn’t even see what other people had created, it was all your own imagination. However, when we got home, my Dad said I couldn’t open it. I was so annoyed, but the reason was because we were going on holiday to Belgium the next day (Actually the reason for going into town that day was to get some currency for the holiday). I was so close yet so far, It was sitting outside my bedroom on the landing, taunting me, I wanted to open it so bad.
That holiday all I spoke about was Lego Studios, how I was going to make films, how my brother would help me make some more films, what I would do… EVERYTHING! My parents must have been going crazy at the slightest mention of Lego Studios, I think they even said something that if I mentioned it again on that holiday I wouldn’t get it. But I was young, I couldn’t stop myself!
Anyway, the holiday was pretty good, went to Bruges, got some nice chocolate. Of course seeing chocolate boobs in the shops was highly amusing to me and all the typical stuff a tourist would do in Belgium.
We arrived home pretty late, I of course wanted to open Lego Studios right away. But my Dad said I had to wait until the morning. This was so agonising, I needed to make movies, so badly, It was so frustrating! I honestly didn’t get any sleep that night, was really annoying. I was awake at 6am from what I remember, I didn’t know what to do, it was technically the morning, the box was sat right outside my bedroom. I had to open it, but should I have? I don’t know, I didn’t spend too long thinking about it, before I was outside of my bedroom grabbing the huge box and dragging it into my bedroom. Placed in on the floor, right in the middle, this huge box sitting there. This was what I had been excited about for the past 4 months or so, right before my eyes. I think I starred at it in awe.
Before I knew it, I was ripping the packaging open, reading all the instruction manuals, seeing everything in the box for the first time. Everything I had read about, the T-Rex head, the lego webcam, the lego Steven Spielberg, even the scared lego cat, everything was there. It was such an exciting time for me.
I must have spent all day playing with it, making films, living out what had been plaguing my mind for so long. It was a glorious time. I ended up collecting the entire set of the Lego Studios franchise and some pretty good films. Some of the films I made consisted of the opening from James Bond, the scene in Harry Potter where they encounter the three headed dog (Using the Lego Harry Potter collection) but my most ambitious project was to film all three books of Lord of the Rings in Lego (mainly because I couldn’t wait to see the Two Towers and Return of the King in the cinema) I started it, filmed the first scene from Fellowship of the Ring, where it is explained where the ring came from. I gave up after that one scene, it took so long (and I was pretty young still) but I made a lot of smaller films.
The sad thing was that I was too young to know how to backup files, I consequently lost some of these precious films, it is a real shame, I’ll always have the memories of them, but wish I had them to share. However I have the Lord of the Ring’s intro somewhere, I have no idea where, all I know is several years later I came across it again. I needed to find it. This search in turn lead me to making this post because I found another of my old webcam videos (which is now on my Facebook for your amusement (and my embarrassment). I still haven’t found it, I hope one day I will and it will be backed up before you know it!
As for my Lego Studios, well I moved house a few months after I got it. I remember I boxed the sets up very carefully making sure they wouldn’t break. But in my new house I started off sharing a room with my brother (which didn’t last long) so there was no room for me to play with it anywhere, so it ended up gathering dust, I made some films when I could but I really didn’t have the space. Currently it is sitting right at the back of my loft, the sets still built, waiting there to be played with again. Maybe they have made 3 films of their own and released them to commercial success in the cinema, I will never know, but one day I will take them down and make a small video.
This has been a long story, thanks if you stuck it through, until the next time…
So, I’m sat here, in my room, 00:10am in a state of nothingness, by which I mean that I am neither bored or occupied. So far my Easter holidays have been somewhat lacking in excitement. It’s nice being at home, not having to worry about money, having decent food and being able to enjoy all the benefits of not living in a house full of people all the time like I would at uni.
However it is pretty boring here, I’ve been able to entertain myself slightly with my “Healthy Eating” photography on my Facebook page. Also been working out a bit, using the Xbox Kinect properly for the first time since I bought it, now that I have space to actually use it, it does make me sweat, so it must be working.
I think a reason for my boredom really reflects on where I live. In an essence, living here is like walking back into my past, how I used to be and live before uni. I used to sit all day playing World of Warcraft for hours on end. Sometimes I would wake up really early and stay awake and fall asleep really early in the morning, and wonder where my entire day had gone. I mean, I was really addicted to this thing, I look back on it now, and laugh and wonder how I ever let myself get to that state. It caused so many problems for me, I didn’t perform as well at school as I should have, my social circles back here, pretty much diminished and many more problems.
I had been playing for about 6 years, and it was just my entire life. It was pretty sad and lonely really, looking back on it. The most shocking part of it is when you realised how long you had actually spent playing the game. When I last checked (quite a while ago now) I had over 360 days played, that’s 360+ 24hour days…that’s over a year of my entire life. I mean, I’m 21, these years should be the best days of my life, going out, having fun, enjoying life…. yet 1 whole year of that entire life was spent in a virtual world. That is crazy! And what did I have to show for it? Really? Sure I was a virtual “celebrity” on my server, people in the game knew me. Back in reality, I was just some guy who spent all his time playing in a fantasy world. I had some pretty good friends too, who I ended up letting down, because in my mind I couldn’t prioritise real life in the fear of letting down my virtual “friends”. It’s ridiculous really. And now, everyone has moved on, I’m kinda stuck here, because I wouldn’t even know where to begin to move on from that. I think this is a large reason why I resent this area in some respects, it’s just a shadow of my past, a nasty part of my life cycle, which I need to get away from.
It had taken me 6 years to get away from that life style, it wasn’t easy, there are always temptations trying to reel me in all the time. The first time I realised how bad it had become was when I was looking over my subscription history. I had started playing Warcraft on 14th February 2005, Valentines Day. Now, I am a bit of a sceptic when it comes to those organised special days like Valentines Day, Mothers Day, Fathers Day etc. Only because you should appreciate those people every single day of your life. You shouldn’t need a cheaply made teddy bear to show your feelings for someone, or the latest Susan Boyle CD (Which in my opinion is more about showing feelings of hatred to someone!). But back to the point, every single Valentines Day I’ve been playing Warcraft I had been single, I just thought to myself, this is not what I want, I mean I don’t care about being single, it’s pretty fun but in reality, maybe that game was a factor? Who knows really, I do wonder what life would be like without that in my life, if I didn’t know what the meanings of terms such as AoE or QQ or other geeky slogan terms, I try not to at times, as it just fills me with feelings of regret that I didn’t grasp those opportunities that life threw at me when I really had the chance to grow from them as a person.
But alas, that lifestyle is over. I never want to go back to it, I couldn’t even imagine myself going back to something like that. I have regrets about that period of my life but at the same time, it has really made me appreciate what life is all about.
I’m looking forward to going back to uni next week, although it’s a quiet little town and not that much in the way of entertainment, all my friends are there, the people who genuinely make me happy when I see them, can have a laugh with, or just general randomness at ridiculous times of the day. I don’t even like spending time at my PC now, I just want to get out and enjoy all the small things, there is limited entertainment to be had crouching over your desk all day and night. It’s pretty great though, what I have experienced in the past few months, I finally feel alive, and not some avatar in some make belief world.
If you have made it this far, thanks for reading, I didn’t anticipate to get this “deep” into my past addictions, but it’s good, to get it out. So thanks for that.
I’ve been up since about 2:30am this morning but it hasn’t really fazed me much. It’s nice being back home in London for the next few weeks, it’s a lovely morning too, the air is fresh and the birds are singing (I’m really painting quite the picture here….!).
Anyway, just been watching the Coachella festival live stream on youtube the past few days, I didn’t realise it was going on but it has been a musical festival that I have known about for a long time. If you don’t know what it is, it’s basically an alternative rock/indie music festival held annually every year in California. Luckily each night a band that I have enjoyed for the past 6/7 years have been playing, Kings of Leon, Arcade Fire and The Strokes…. and they all rocked their sets!
I love it when you find something completely random online, an event to be part of. I’ve experienced it before a few times it’s always a great feeling, in a way it’s a testament to the way the internet has evolved to allow people to be involved with all aspects of life. These days breaking news happens within seconds and can be spread like wildfire, especially on sites like Twitter and Facebook. It’s just amazing how far we have come in such a short amount of time.
I’m sitting here in my room, listening to Foo Fighters just generally chilling out. As everyone is going home for the Easter holidays I’m just thinking over all that has happened since Decemeber, I’m going to attempt to list them!
Directed my first film at university - This was the Merlin film, it didn’t go as well as anticipated, mainly due to the problems we had shooting it but the end result was quite an entertaining film, which hopefully will cause a few laughs.
Started up my photography again - You know, I haven’t really uploaded anything to my Flickr since 2008, when I went to Los Angeles. I’m really glad that my new unknowing inspiration has allowed me to pick up my camera again and take all sorts of pictures, it feels good, and reminds me why I used to enjoy photography in the first place.
I have given up World of Warcraft, for good! - This is a bit of an odd achievement, but I had been playing Warcraft for just over 6 years, I lost out on a lot of stuff, friends, social events, holidays. It was bad. But that is in the past now, it is something I never want to return to, life is too good to waste a large chunk of it escaping into a virtual world for hours on end however much fun it is at the time, the long term effects really showed themselves in the end. I’ve made the right choice.
For the first time, I’m on top of everything. - What I mean by this is, before I used to leave work to the last minute. I rushed it, didn’t take care or pride with it but now, I’ve gotten to the point where I have all my work done and now I can relax and not having that added stress on top is very rewarding.
Met some really cool new people - This term, I have met some really cool people who were sort of there before, but have become more prominent now, although they probably won’t read this, they should know who they are.
So that’s a run down of the past few months, pretty good eh? I think so, it’s been fun and enjoyable, uni life is great right now, it’s a shame there is only 4 weeks left when we come back, best to make the most of them!
So last night I was browsing Youtube, and noticed that there was a live stream of the Coachella Concert and Kings of Leon were playing. I was really surprised and thought it was awesome, It felt as if I had opened up my window and realised a band had set up to play outside….
Anyway, thought I would post my favourite song from them, which I first heard about 6 years ago I think!
So, it’s 01:44am on 13th April, and I have to say in general I feel pretty good about, well everything!
On top of all my university work, which is great, it really is nice that for the last few weeks I haven’t had to worry about my work too much. Usually in the past I’ve had a tendency to leave it to the last moment, which isn’t any good at all.
Right now I’m just chilling out, listening to XFM, been listening to the radio quite a lot at uni despite my vast music collection I just love discovering the latest new music. However this last week my music listening choice has been the latest album offering from the Foo Fighters, I’m a huge fan so naturally I’m very excited about their latest work, which is quite simply awesome!
This past week has mainly been spent in the garden, soaking up all the sunshine during the day, and then the stars at night. Seeing me outside used to be very rare site, I’m glad that is no longer the case any more, and it won’t be in the future.
These past few weeks, I’ve gotten to know someone who has unintentionally and unknowingly inspired me to grab my camera and take photos again and well this weather has been the perfect opportunity for it. It’s great appreciating all the wonders that this planet has to give us (and don’t get me wrong, I’m not an environmentalist, naturist, hippy etc by any means!). I just find it amazing to see the world change around our very eyes, each day is unique as it will never occur ever again, and that has to be pretty special, doesn’t it? Bouncing back to reality here, I do love taking photography, I haven’t really done any since going to Los Angeles in 2008, which was quite a while ago. (http://www.flickr.com/photos/antronoid/)
Lately I’ve had a new philosophy which has come in pretty handy, “In the grand scheme of thing’s in the universe, you are just a speck of stardust”. This little quote I’ve come up with, in a way sums up a variety of different thing’s. It can be negative, in the sense that a speck of stardust is so insignificant, what does it matter? But my way of looking at it is much more positive than that. If your only a speck of stardust, on a planet, which is dwarfed by our own star, which in turn is dwarfed by many other stars out there, then really, there is no need to worry about a thing, our existence is so precious, most of us won’t even be here for 100 years, yet time itself goes on for billions of years. So back to my point, being a speck of stardust in a universe which too mind boggling big for our minds to even begin thinking about, then well, what we do, right here, right now, shouldn’t even matter because if we are just a speck of stardust, how do we fit into the grand scheme of the universe? But the real way of looking at it, is how to get that small speck of stardust to shine brightly throughout time.
Anyway, this random thought process has felt pretty “deep” probably the majority of it is just a bunch of gibberish, but hey, can’t expect much at… well, 02:07am now!
So on that light note, if you have made it this far, then give yourself a pat on the back or something, because you earn’t it!
So I’m LOVING the new Foo Fighters album, which they are streaming online…so awesome being able to hear them back to their prime, I have always loved their stuff…. but this just feels …. special!
So, I’m pretty psyched up, got all my work moreorless done, both my essays (Well my “essay” and my Directors specialism project) and they were pretty good fun to write too!
Been a sort of fun week too, party at our house last monday was pretty good, the house is still in one piece. Although there was a bit of sad news my tuna and pasta bake has dissapeared. I am so worried, I have no idea how it will cope with the dangers of outside life without it’s refrigerator I have no idea how it could possible survive. Anyway I hope it has migrated to a better home, I hope to hear from it one day….
So yesterday was April Fools day as well, nothing really fooled me, I think it has just become that sort of holiday where you no longer will be surprised anymore, it’s more of expecting for the obvious. It kinda reminds me of Valentines Day and Christmas….you don’t really hope for a surprise anymore, your just kinda expecting a gift of some description. But some funny things from today were the funny or die website becoming a shrine to Rebecca Black (and seeing as this April Fools day happened on a Friday, this whole thing seems kinda planned!). Also the Gmail Motion and Youtube stunts were pretty funny. Really April Fools day sort of has become one of those lightly entertaining days where everyone (especially major corporations) tend to poke fun out of the little things in life.
But yes, this has been a good week, I doubt the next week will live up to expectations, but heres hoping!